It is one of those days where so many thoughts have pilled up that I struggle to focus on the tasks ahead. As quickly as possible I must begin writing anything and everything on my mind in an attempt to move forward successfully. Skip the long morning workout, avoid TV and social media. Get a cup of hot tea and some fruit and get outside to a nice creative space in the garden.
I am constantly battling between the nomad world and the world of the capitalist. I’m a starving artist, a missionary with a lifetime mission, and I find that I am actually at war with myself more than any theoretical opponent. In this day and age, I must clear my mind from time to time to increase my strength.
One half of my world is fine with living in nature and spending months in between the solitude leading an army of volunteers to make a positive change. The other half begs me to maintain a fort with tools and treasures in order to provide stability. I can not live happy and healthy in one world without the other so I choose to live in balance. Yin and Yang. Back and forth I march, doing the best I can to please those who support me.
I live the dream. The dream that I am walking the world in a time before the industrial revolution where living among nature was all there was. A world where possessions where few and money did not dictate how we lived. A world where you could just gather your food and enjoy time with friends and family without despair. Perhaps the dream lives me.
I have a life partner who is happy with my efforts to build the financial wealth needed to provide shelter and security. I also have supporters who are happy to see me venture the world leading efforts to make positive change.
Recently I have been focusing on strategic moves that make progress on both fronts.
To progress in the capitalist war, I have established a permanent center of operations in Hawkins Texas. A center that invites the community to gather and learn about positive subjects. I share knowledge on health, fitness, art, spirituality, gardening, renewable energy and other positive topics. This center offers communal gardening, art studio space, fitness room and a gallery to aid in raising money to offset the $800 a month in expenses.
To keep moving forward in my nomad battle, I must continue creating works of art and increase efforts to promote them in order to survive.
For years I lived with no worries, no bills, no “To Do” lists. I lived the dream.
And now….
I need to…..
- give my loved ones some love ( I realize I am lacking in this because of the stress I’m attempting to release by posting this blog.) xoxoxo
- review and edit a land lease for the center
- promote remodeling and computer / phone services to generate income to pay for the center
- promote the center to connect with members who will make financial contributions to support it (Any artists, gardeners, fitness students, nomads in the Hawkins area?)
- setup the lower level of the learning center
- complete the final edits on a 10 year writing project (Life Wisdom) and get it published
- write a 6 minute short story about my life and audio record it for a Tyler Texas story telling event deadline
- sell tons of antique furniture and art in our inventory to relieve some of the financial burden
- go spend some volunteer time at the mission around the corner
- go for a jog around the lake down the street
- ???? I know I’m forgetting a few things”
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